my letter to the universe

i hear you. i am patiently struggling to hear what you have to say, or see what you have to show me. i've received your signs and with each i close my eyes, take a deep breath, and tell myself there is something larger at work here. it's been a most trying time i will tell you. you have been testing me most strategically. at moments of exhaustion it begins to ware on my mind and bother me a bit, but after that second wind i am back up ready to take what you have to give me. i don't want to challenge you, but rather work with you. are all of these things meant to lead me to somewhere? why are there so many doors opening yet they slowly become closed to me? i know it must be for some reason and i don't want to push the veil if i am not meant to touch it. i don't want to force something if it is not meant to be, but as well i don't want to be left behind. i have faith... it's getting dusted off during these moments of trial and tribulation, but my head is held up high and my heart full of love and sincerity. i know who i am, where i have come from and where i wish to go. like a wise man once told me, life is full of problems, it's how we carry on with the solutions that make the difference. i am trying to heed that advice, keeping a positive vibe in all i do, keeping a pure heart, and just being me with every day that passes along. i know all of these things are meant to remind me of what matters most to me and what i care about. i'm trying to do my part and i will keep my wits about me, looking for further clues, but please know i mean no disrespect, i just want to know where this is taking me?