miami recap

i need to get my negatives developed soon. i'm missing out on my photos. i took a few at the pinecrest gardener's market this past sunday. i ended up staying in miami for the weekend. i drove to drop the doctor off. i hate goodbyes. i am too emotional so i like to just avoid them and stay as unattached as i can... i have tried this for a long time, but so far all attempts have failed me. luckily i had some friends around to get my mind off of farewells, so i headed to the old alma mater (hah i can say that now and i realize how cheesy it truly sounds).

everything has changed... i haven't been around for a long time, but still, when did 826 and 836 become unneccesary toll roads??? contruction is still booming, or has come to a sever halt, however there are new shadows being cast on the city. even the airport is in transition. jesus. school was no different. come to find they have revamped the system, locking students into a complete study program -- undergrad + grad. damn, high expectations they have and distorted views about their education system to think people would want to stay with the same perspective. caught up with some friends who are now in grad school and explored the place a bit. so many memories. cutting many fingers in the middle of the night, running to the health center for stitches, falling alseep by the vending machines, computer lab, pinups, ... ahh good days. now its filled with kids who seem so young and impressionable, .. (were we like this?) and complete strangers. it's strange and i feel old. the bustelo stand seems to be surviving the dark, overbearing presence of starbucks. the casis meeting ended up being david and 3 other kids. why don't these kids care about their environment, community, social issues? i hope it will gain more attention and attendees. the dark demon is no longer advising. she has been replaced by a younger, inexperienced fill in. i don't know what's worse, but at least if she is approachable it's a significant improvement.

i made it for petersen's birthday as well as an eventful homecoming the following night. i guess nobody knew i was going to be in town for the joyous event, granted as i haven't been to miami in over a year, who would think i would be there. regardless, everyone's reactions were priceless and made me feel extra special to know that i had been missed so deeply. it was overwhelming to have one night to catch up with everybody but it was lovely. from edna's cake to the cheese balls and empanadas, it was a hit.

i lost my wii powers, i guess only playing those few times in prague and competing against people who play all the time isn't really fair though. i thought i was working wonders with my golf swing only to learn i was performing horribly... double bogey is in fact worse than bogey. so it goes. i have missed my friends, and i have probably missed out on a lot. maybe some of them i have drifted from, but i try to hold on to what remains for most and try to keep going. i learned early about the complexities of life and the things which are fair, unavoidable, and inevitable. i may not know the final outcomes of most of my decisions yet, but i do know i had to sacrifice certain things to go where i wanted or do what i wanted. and knowing that i have no rocks unturned leaves me living a life without regret, and for that i am able to sleep at night, some nights. it's difficult to keep your head level when everything in life is constantly sidewinding us. i don't know. regardless, it was a good trip. short, but good to see everybody and catch up. damn good apricot pockets jules!

valentines was jules, erika, and myself at taco rico. group nap. this amazingly, cheesy show called cheaters was having a marathon (catches people in the act of cheating -- supposedly the host has been hospitalized for intensive run-ins with the cheaters). ended the night with the eagle vs the shark, a lovely new zealand gem of a movie. all in all the weekend was well enjoyed.