sleep patterns or that which the dawn brings about...

4:00am

what is it that stirs me from my sleep at such a time?

lately the action follows through like clockwork....

no matter the deepest of sleep where i may be found,

something triggers my internal alarm and i am nudged rudely awake;

left only to try and find my way back to that well-hidden, calming rest.

my mind afloat,

running through thoughts of the day,

listening to the city buzzing about outside,

i see the spaces of the sidewalks and the streets in my visions,

my eyes grow heavier and heavier,

again i am lulled back to the land of sheep.

7:00am

the sun peers in through the pane,

almost grabbing at my eyelashes playfully

and i fight to run the sleep from my lazy eyes...

the cold air leaking in from the window above my head,

tempts me to further burrow and hide deeper under the covers,

seeking refuge and warmth from the elements which await my presence.

7:30am

time is running along without me,

irked by this, i crawl out from the enveloping warmth and comfort...

i find my way to the startling reality of a cold shower,

i'm reminded a new day awaits,

one in which new possibilities are lurking about,

waiting to be discovered and seized...

like clockwork the phone rings,

i am met with a familiar voice,

(one which usually wakes me if i am so fortunate).

beauty takes me in an embrace met with laughter

and the world,

despite the looming uncertainties,

seems so hopeful and joyful.

this is what it's about...

those moments.

through that i am armed to face whatever may be laid out before me,

confidently,

humorously,

and delightfully...

making the most of any and every situation;

for i chose to see beauty in all,

i don't have time for the negative drawbacks.

and the day carries on....

some may be more trying than others,

but i know there is greatness within,

and i owe it to myself to seize it;

to manifest it;

to live the life i dream.

perspective

it's a grand thing, perspective.

it reminds you a bit frankly to be grateful,

to be humble,

to live most lovingly and honestly.

it has been an ever-important guide for me,

getting me through adolescence,

uncertainties,

and in general it's been just a good companion in life.

it's given me wisdom when i've sought it,

peace of mind when i'm stressed,

and clarity when i loose my way.

it's played a major role in my unveiling--

i know my time will soon come,

but i detest thinking about it,

for i love the joys and beauty which only life can bring about..

a flower blooming,

a baby's laughter,

a rain shower,

washing away the what was and leaving something new...

leaves changing,

yes, ok, these cycles are all around,

constant reminders of the natural process,

yet simultaneously, they add bits of light here and there;

perspective shining ever bright,

a reminder that impermanence abounds.

so we must take it for what it is,

these cues...

and try to apply it in our lives,

our thinking...

try it as an exercise and see what it's all about.

who knows how it may affect you?

in those moments of grief, remember

you are beautiful, strong, and inspiring.

you are my dream and my reality.

how did it come to be so?

for this love i have discovered is most breathtaking and amazing.

i know i can't be there and i'm sorry for that,

but i'm here and trust me anything in my power i could do, i would.

i don't have the words..

it's still something i'm trying to get my head around,

all i can say is take refuge in that which is larger than us.

we'll get through it all, for this too shall pass.

keep shining most bright.