when you least expect it... enjoy the ride

It has been a very busy and crazy rollercoaster of a time since my last post, nearly a year. I still keep my pen and paper near for reflection, just not enough time to log in. So much has happened in my life, changes, shifted priorities, not enough hours in the day... Maya is now 6 months old and doing well, although going through a rough teething phase. She is awe-inspiring and brings so much joy to our lives, as well as those she comes into contact. I've nearly reached the halfway mark in my graduate studies. Just applied for Spring graduation this past week, which seems almost ridiculous, but it's really happening and I'm making it through. So much so that I am now contemplating a PhD in Anthropology somewhere down the line. Never imagined that. It's been a stress but an equal blessing to have this opportunity. I've been craving it for so long and to witness it materialize has been awesome. I've always leaned toward taking the road less walked on out of pure wonder and curiosity of who I will be at the end of it all. Thank God for that, honestly. Knowing the end result before reaching your final destination is pure boredom and hacked programming. It's those unforeseen challenges that really shape who you are meant to be in life.... how you pass through, overcome, acknowledge, perspective gained, et al. all of that aids in real self-discovery. Some days I don't know how I'm surviving, with endless papers, projects and deadlines, Maya, husband, family, creeping anxieties about those things which fall out of my control.... it's all life and at some point God, Jah, Krishna, Allah, offers a way through and with that passing, wisdom and knowledge are shared and everything that's been chaotic suddenly makes sense. Yea there are tough times in life, but we choose it for ourselves one way or another. In the end it makes those sweet moments that much more rewarding. For now I'm reveling in the joy of the small victories... this could be just another lesson I that I needed refreshed. I'm taking note and minding that I appreciate all that this little life has witnessed and survived. Who knows what's ahead and at the end of the day who cares because if you have the mindset to conquer anything and live life fully, it should be pretty darn amazing. I'm grateful for this life and the people who I'm blessed to share it with.  Anything is possible even today. Positivity is powerful and one ounce of it can move mountains and make the world spin. Spread some and witness the possibilities as you explore the path unknown on the journey to discover the real, genuine you.